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I live in a small town and enjoy writing about the inhabitants. I spend most of my time perusing through used book stores looking for that one great book that I don't have; consequently, I have rooms filled with books. I am a book addict.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

I'm back baby.

It has been a while since I posted, not because I have not wanted to post, but I have just been in this mood, which, by the way, has lifted. I am feeling much better. Yeah! I am seeing a therapist. Yep, he is cool, but he doesn’t think medication is such a good idea. What the fuck, I have bipolar and when I go off the medication I have urges that can not be controlled, urges like shopping until I have written more hot checks than can be counted and charging up all the credit cards to the limit and borrowing more money from anyone who doesn’t recognize that I am manic. Plus, yes there is a plus, I go nuts buying the same thing like five tv sets, or seven chopper/slicer thingies. So, medication is a must to keep me from doing that crazy manic thing. So, the therapist and I are in this tug of war, okay, I’ll give you two of my xanax a day but that’s it, no more. He is wanting to take me down about 600 mg of trilipital, well, he has never seen me off of that drug. It’s the really good one that keeps me sane. But, on the bright side, he has taught me how to do relaxation techniques, which do wonders to release that stress and he is pushing me toward body massages and aroma therapy, not by him, no, the masseuse is a physical therapist at a clinic. He says that this man is like the best in the world in finding those pressure points that are keeping me all stressed up and so I’m going to give it a whirl. The aroma therapy, well, I’m going to try it too. I mean, I have to get healthy, right?
I am reading the Iliad in hopes of finding something that I can use to write my research project paper on in my Ovid class this fall. I only have a couple of weeks to turn in my idea. I thought, I’d read Homer’s Iliad and Odyssey and then re read the Metamorphosis and see what comes up. Since, Ovid was so influenced by Homer and the other Greeks, well; it seems that if I am going to write something, might as well start at the beginning. Who knows? It might even be that I’ll write on the effects that Ovid had on present day writers or writers like Chaucer or Shakespeare. I just don’t know.
And why is it so fucking hot outside? I swear, when I take Baby to the park, it’s like a fucking oven and then I sit in the shade and every few minutes call him over to rehydrate his little body with Gatorade or Kool-Aid or water. He just runs nonstop. Today,, swimming, yes, no getting hot for me. And the cicadas are singing. I hate those loud creatures, they are never ending. We hear them from the end of June until it turns cool in September. At least at night, the tree frogs make a nice song and it makes the summers doable.

8 Comments:

Blogger OTRgirl said...

I'm glad you found a therapist you like. That's always a challenge.

One of my good friends was mildly bipolar. Every two weeks she shifted from either being able to conquor the world to feeling like everything was hopeless. She tried hormone therapy that seemed to even out her moods a bit. Plus lots of prayer and dealing with the deeper emotional/physical stuff. It's a lot of work to take care of yourself. I'm glad you're working on all that!

7:28 AM  
Blogger Mouse said...

Welcome back. Missed ya :*)

10:18 AM  
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4:43 PM  
Blogger Austin of Sundrip Journals said...

i have to agree that massage and aroma therapy are wonderful therapy tools. I love the aroma therapy.

6:51 PM  
Blogger Diane said...

I'm glad you went ahead and started learning the relaxation techniques (I discussed that a few weeks ago in comments). Self-hppnosis could also be helpful. I hope, though, that the therapist realizes that full-blown bipolar disorder requires medication.

4:22 PM  
Blogger zelda1 said...

Diane, he does understand that and I would never stop taking my meds, I have tried that and my mania turns psychotic really quickly. He is good, I trust him. He wants my husband to visit too.

1:01 PM  
Blogger delagar said...

Yo, I done lost your email. Fuck me. But the kid and I might come see you tomorrow, since we'll be up the hill (Saturday) -- email me and let me know if this is cool!

3:53 PM  
Blogger Writer Chica said...

Hope you are continuing to feel well. Good luck with the therapist. It's hard to find a compatible one. Hope he gives you good strategies for being healthy.

take care, hope the heat has passed you by now.

9:22 PM  

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